Ok so K went to Kansas. On Wednesday last week we got email saying that he was to get on a plane Sunday. He gets there and things are better than we thought they were going to be. We are both starting to reconsider where we think the problem is with this entire program. So Monday he has all kinds of appointments. Found you several new things.
1. thought this was step two, nope this is step one. We will be doing this for another year probably.
2. that the powers that be would perfer me to go with him.
We have always been told I am not allowed to go with him.
3. he most likely does not have TBI but what is called post-concusion syndrome.
Still up in the air if that is better or worse, more research needs to be done.
4. Cpt E is AWSOME, he takes really good care of us.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Friday, September 23, 2011
How do you?
How do you learn to live with an emotionally absent person.
Don't get me wrong, I love him. More than he will ever know but two tours to Iraq have left him emotionally disconnected. He never talked about his feelings, what was wrong, or any emotions. When you made him mad did not want to talk about it. It was a chalange to keep him , I guess, envolved before, but now it is almost impossible. I try so hard and the harder I try the madder he gets then it is down here from there. I do not know what to do to help or to make it better.
How do you live with no affection.
Again he has never been that affectionate, was never a really lovey person, maybe got a hug and kiss once or twice a week, I could live with that. But now I have to ask for a kiss everytime, and a hug, when I do get one he acts like the only thing he wants to do is let go as fast as possible. As for the rest of it little to non comes may way, if you know what I am saying.
I am having a hard time dealling with it, I am trying to be understanding. I understand why he is this way, and that it is normal ( if any of this could be considered normal). I am truely trying my best and I know that I will learn to live with it but for now it is very difficult.
Don't get me wrong, I love him. More than he will ever know but two tours to Iraq have left him emotionally disconnected. He never talked about his feelings, what was wrong, or any emotions. When you made him mad did not want to talk about it. It was a chalange to keep him , I guess, envolved before, but now it is almost impossible. I try so hard and the harder I try the madder he gets then it is down here from there. I do not know what to do to help or to make it better.
How do you live with no affection.
Again he has never been that affectionate, was never a really lovey person, maybe got a hug and kiss once or twice a week, I could live with that. But now I have to ask for a kiss everytime, and a hug, when I do get one he acts like the only thing he wants to do is let go as fast as possible. As for the rest of it little to non comes may way, if you know what I am saying.
I am having a hard time dealling with it, I am trying to be understanding. I understand why he is this way, and that it is normal ( if any of this could be considered normal). I am truely trying my best and I know that I will learn to live with it but for now it is very difficult.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
No sleep
So the question of the day. Do you go to bed so that you can get up in the morning and take care of kids and housework or do you stay up with hubby that can not sleep. I feel guilly because I don't stay up, I know it is frustrating to him because he can not sleep. He has to take so many pills to get to sleep and then he still does not sleep sometimes. I know it has to be frustrating to him because all the house is asleep.
On a different subject, MOODSWINGS, He wakes up in the morning bored, so he aggervates me, in the blink of an eye, he is down and does not want to talk or do anything, an hour later is is back to aggervating the piss out of me. Sometime is get whiplash, by the time I get used to one it changes. Then he gets frustrated because I am not interacting with him in the correct way.
On a different subject, MOODSWINGS, He wakes up in the morning bored, so he aggervates me, in the blink of an eye, he is down and does not want to talk or do anything, an hour later is is back to aggervating the piss out of me. Sometime is get whiplash, by the time I get used to one it changes. Then he gets frustrated because I am not interacting with him in the correct way.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Helpless
What do you do when the one you love is either physically or emotionally hurting and there is nothing you can do. I am a fixer, always trying to fix stuff that is wrong and I can not do anything to help my wonderful husband.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
just another day
today is just another day.
to catch everyone up
kelly was sent to Germany in April 2009
Sent to El Paso in June 2009
Then home October 2009 as part of the civial based warrior in trasition unit.
That is where we have been since.
The CBWTU seems to be a good unit but the processes is seriously flawed.
We have been to Utah twice for information and networking.
It is really frustrating to have a man who would love to go to work but can't because the Army won't let him. He has PTSD and it is just made worse by the fact he is at home.
to catch everyone up
kelly was sent to Germany in April 2009
Sent to El Paso in June 2009
Then home October 2009 as part of the civial based warrior in trasition unit.
That is where we have been since.
The CBWTU seems to be a good unit but the processes is seriously flawed.
We have been to Utah twice for information and networking.
It is really frustrating to have a man who would love to go to work but can't because the Army won't let him. He has PTSD and it is just made worse by the fact he is at home.
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